Finally!

Finally I found what I have wondered for years. It was a scene I did not dare to speak about, not even to my then boyfriend. I was afraid he would think I had had a hallucination, that I've gone crazy.

It was during love making when I suddenly when I opened my eyes saw beings, dark energy, and particurly one, it's hard to explain what they were, I could only see one head's clearly. I somehow think it was a he, his head, face, and he and they -the dark mist, shaping - was showing up behind my boyfriends shoulders, back. The one who's face I saw had it's mouth open as if breathing in something big time. I froze. I stared. I could not get a word out but I remember I thought leave him alone! He thought something had gone wrong. Asking me. Then just as quick as I had seen him or they - that energy - it went away.

It was the first and only time I experience something like that. Just because it happened during love making, when I tried to finally bring up the subject to someone who clearly saw itself as some expert in ghosts (not on this forum, somewhere else, other circumstances) I was automatically thought of as if I was some pervert and this was some sick fantasy of mine. I was not taken seriously.

I did not want to lie and just say Oh, one day I just happen to see...and not mention the circumstances. I have always thought it had to do with something with the state I or we were in. We had a long term loving relationship and a healthy, normal love life. I know I did not create this from a wish or imagination or what I saw was not true. I did not want it to be true.

I was so worried at the time. I remember I would while he was doing dishes touch my hand on his arms and on his back just to make sure I did not see or feel anything there. And I could not talk to him about it. And I wished I had.

This boyfriend was going through a grief and he was becoming addicted to alcohol. He had grief and anger in his past. I remember he told me when he was younger he use to have an anger management problem and he would go and talk to someone, still with me he was never abusive and he was never over the top with his anger during our fights. One time I remember he got really mad, but that was with someone else, not me. He would say to me that before (before us) he had had a pretty bad period where he had felt the blues.

The video the guy in it explains about spiritual attachment mention what I have been looking for so long that a spiritual attachment can happen during love making.Mentioned too are depression, anger, alcohol.

I think energies on the other side can influence and be drawn to us, drain energy. I hate to think he or they did that on the boyfriend and hope his spirit is free of it now.

https://youtu.be/MirPRvy5O7k