I'm starting to realize that whether I like it or not, I truly am tied to my TF for forever, no matter how hard I try to forget about him and pretend he doesn't exist. There truly is no escaping. Every time I say I'm done, the Universe bombards me with signs of him within hours, and I'll usually end up running into him out of nowhere even after not seeing him for weeks. This happens EACH AND EVERY time I try to walk away. And yet he still won't admit his feelings. He was so close to finally admitting his feelings, but then he got scared, and became the "runner".
I know people say, "Just live your life and things will happen when they're supposed to," but that's easier said than done. It's hard to just live my life when he's always on my mind, which is why I've tried so hard to just forget about him and move on. But I can't because the Universe won't let me. And not only do I get bombarded with signs, but I feel empty and sick inside my soul whenever I try to move on. I feel like part of his spirit is inside of me.
I just hope that something good comes out of this eventually. I know that this is also supposed to be about "growing," but I don't think I'm doing too well on that these days.
I really am tied to my TF for forever, aren't I?
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