can our energy be too intense for normal people as well

[Zoeila]

i know our energy can be too intense for our twin to deal with at times but what about normal people? i've notice in the past couple months that my twin is trying to love me from afar like she can only be in my pressence for short bursts of time,but it's not just her it's my friends too. sometimes it seems to happen at the same time leaving me feeling loney and wondering if i've done something wrong. i suppose it's possible theres some kind of wide scale reflection going on,or maybe there's someone i'm supposed to help that i'm ignoring because of my TF and friends.

[Renessme]

Yes i read somewhere that they are uncomfortable with the hightened energy vibration we exude. (Doesnt mean we are better than them though.) I know what you mean by lonely. It is hard to find friends who can share the same vibration. After awakening i just dont get them at all. The things they talk about no longer interests me too. I also find that when i lower my vibration, i.e, gossipping it ends up not so good at all. Like they would take my comments differently, even when im joking! Like its hard to establish rapport even with my old friends. And if i lower my vibration, i end up regretting it later as i sort of go to states of "sleeping" or unawakened-ness again. Like my ego or child self wants to emerge again.

Originally Posted by Renessme

Yes i read somewhere that they are uncomfortable with the hightened energy vibration we exude. (Doesnt mean we are better than them though.) I know what you mean by lonely. It is hard to find friends who can share the same vibration. After awakening i just dont get them at all. The things they talk about no longer interests me too. I also find that when i lower my vibration, i.e, gossipping it ends up not so good at all. Like they would take my comments differently, even when im joking! Like its hard to establish rapport even with my old friends. And if i lower my vibration, i end up regretting it later as i sort of go to states of "sleeping" or unawakened-ness again. Like my ego or child self wants to emerge again.

Is ego your child self? Really? I thought ego and child self are different.

[John Elessar]

Originally Posted by Renessme

Yes i read somewhere that they are uncomfortable with the hightened energy vibration we exude. (Doesnt mean we are better than them though.) I know what you mean by lonely. It is hard to find friends who can share the same vibration. After awakening i just dont get them at all. The things they talk about no longer interests me too. I also find that when i lower my vibration, i.e, gossipping it ends up not so good at all. Like they would take my comments differently, even when im joking! Like its hard to establish rapport even with my old friends. And if i lower my vibration, i end up regretting it later as i sort of go to states of "sleeping" or unawakened-ness again. Like my ego or child self wants to emerge again.


Btw, i have also noticed zoiela how, as a consequence, i have developed an unhealthy detachment. Because rather than cultivate relationships i seem to distance from them. Ecen from friends, and sometimes i do not even do it on purpose. I stilk have some friends who im on the same wavelength with and even then tells me i have become a monk or something.

My experience exactly. I've slowly become more distant from my best male friend, for exactly this reason. He's also a pretty rabid right winger politically as well (liberal here), and, while I can occ. get together and share a laugh with him, to a certain extent you are right about that. Prolonged company with such people can be a bit of a drag. [I also found myself in the mall the other day for the first time in a number of years, and I could just feel my energy slowly drain out of me while I was in there...]

Interesting that you mention the child self thing (yes, read your clarification on that), because many of my younger students are drawn to me even tho my adult colleagues typically are not.

[Renessme]

Hi john, i didnt notice that before, but now that you've mentioned it, yes, the young ones tend to gravitate towards me and i tend to repel older people (but thosein age o wisdom say 70 up likes me too). What do you think could be the reason for this?

Also, what are you doing to address the detachment, im a young adult and to be realistic, needs to be out there (in 3d). Im trying to slowly immerse myself going out with a few groups of people, i can handle going to church, to the mall, but not gathering where i need to mingle with a lot of people (parties, conferences) and the nature of my job needs me to do so. It is also hard not to have a lot of friends who you can be intimate with (i mean this in a non sexual way). I miss having someone who i can tell anything, who i can bare how my soul feels and get supported. The friends who are on the same wavelength are either very busy or are detached like a monk too!

Apologies zoiela for riding on your thread.

[John Elessar]

Originally Posted by Renessme

Hi john, i didnt notice that before, but now that you've mentioned it, yes, the young ones tend to gravitate towards me and i tend to repel older people (but thosein age o wisdom say 70 up likes me too). What do you think could be the reason for this?

Younger people IMNSHO, are very heavily indoctrinated to fit certain images of success and such so as to fit into this culture conventionally while they strive towards what passes for "success" in this country. If you don't fit that image it will be hard to fit in. I see a huge difference between my younger and older female students, for example-the former seem to be oozing soul all over the place, while the older ones seem very inhibited and don't seem able and/or willing to fully express their genuine selves. I have met a few exceptions, most notably one which I taught when she was 9 who returned this year at 16, her bubbly personality from years ago still fully intact.

Older folks have a chance to allow themselves to express their authentic selves more freely than when they were younger, since they've (sometimes!) learned that their former attachments may have outlived their usefulness.

Also, what are you doing to address the detachment, im a young adult and to be realistic, needs to be out there (in 3d). Im trying to slowly immerse myself going out with a few groups of people, i can handle going to church, to the mall, but not gathering where i need to mingle with a lot of people (parties, conferences) and the nature of my job needs me to do so. It is also hard not to have a lot of friends who you can be intimate with (i mean this in a non sexual way). I miss having someone who i can tell anything, who i can bare how my soul feels and get supported. The friends who are on the same wavelength are either very busy or are detached like a monk too!

Like I said above, at those ages it will be tough. I wish I could be of more help there, but am myself a hermit of sorts too.

[Jaclynt]

Originally Posted by Renessme

Yes i read somewhere that they are uncomfortable with the hightened energy vibration we exude. (Doesnt mean we are better than them though.) I know what you mean by lonely. It is hard to find friends who can share the same vibration. After awakening i just dont get them at all. The things they talk about no longer interests me too. I also find that when i lower my vibration, i.e, gossipping it ends up not so good at all. Like they would take my comments differently, even when im joking! Like its hard to establish rapport even with my old friends. And if i lower my vibration, i end up regretting it later as i sort of go to states of "sleeping" or unawakened-ness again. Like my ego or child self wants to emerge again.

Hi Renessme, I've had a difficult time hanging out with friends since I've been awakened too. You hit the nail on the head when you said that the things they talk about no longer interest you. I feel the same way. I feel really bad admitting that, but it's the truth. Being awakened has had such a powerful impact on me that it's all I can think about.

[Jaclynt]

Originally Posted by Jaclynt

Hi Renessme, I've had a difficult time hanging out with friends since I've been awakened too. You hit the nail on the head when you said that the things they talk about no longer interest you. I feel the same way. I feel really bad admitting that, but it's the truth. Being awakened has had such a powerful impact on me that it's all I can think about.

I also wanted to add that the conversation with my TF are so wonderful and soul connecting, that it's so hard to have a conversation with people that do not fulfill that in me. Do you feel the same?

[Renessme]

Originally Posted by Jaclynt

I also wanted to add that the conversation with my TF are so wonderful and soul connecting, that it's so hard to have a conversation with people that do not fulfill that in me. Do you feel the same?

Yes. I find a few people i am comfortable sharing myself intimately, baring my soul, telling them things about me. And yes, my tf was like that for me too. We had that from the get go. We became intimately close (not intimate sexually, but more mentally and emotionally, and maybe yes, even spiritually, hence the soul connection) from the 1st few days of our interaction.

John and Scarlet, i find that the spiritual path is a solitary life. But i am finding this drive to be out more in this world these days. I woukdnt wanna make the solitude of the spiritual path as my form of escapism (im a pisces and im prone to escapism).

You are a normal person.

People can be afraid of the incredible CONFIDENCE and HONESTY that comes with not fitting in and genuinely not caring.