self-sabotage

I came across another thread and had an aha moment. It related to health conditions being as much emotional as physical.

Now call it what you will, being over weight in my eyes is a health condition (I really don't care to battle the semantics on this - fat is fat and I'm fat).

Anyway, I do know what to do, I think we all do to be honest.

My point is, I have yo-yo'd more times than I care to recount. And I have wondered in the past if I'm not self-sabotaging this. As in, yeah I can lose weight, yeah the compliments roll in, but man, I'm so over the cycle!

I wonder if I can't retain the slimmer version of me due to emotional _____ (can't think of the word). It would be nice to focus on clearing out old ____ (energy?) Whatever it is that is causing me to yo-yo.

Other than the obvious - putting food in the mouth and lack of physical exercise, am I holding onto negative energy < *pondering it given my aha moment*

Any spiritual weight-loss gurus out there?