wHY DO I ENCOUNTER THESE???

Originally Posted by Spirit25

I hear my SM name all time. He moved away and I constantly hear about that place or I meet people online from there. I've met people who resembled him in someways. The list goes on and on. I think I experience these things more when I'm doubting the connection. These things happen to show you how strong the connection really is. Don't put too much into it, just accept you have the connection and continue focusing on yourself. It's not easy I know, believe me I was on here a few days ago feeling really down. But I know the best thing to do is stop the fear, stop the doubts. The connection and love is there even if we are not together in the physical sense. Me & my SM needed to break up cause we needed to go on separate journeys to find ourselves. Looking back no matter how much I love him and no matter how hard I tried we would have never worked in the present state. We haven't reached the point of being the people we were always meant to be. We are still learning, growing and have so much stuff to work through. These last few days even though the pain is still there, it comforts me to know that our love is still there. He may not say anything, he may keep running and doing everything to distance himself from me, but it's because he's afraid to face himself and it has nothing to do with me. Going keep pushing through the pain and continue on the path of being the person I want to be, the person I'm meant to be. Right now that means focusing on my new job and getting into school.

yes you maybe right
i doubt my connection many times coz of some things which hurt me.
i get very emotional then it then it just agitates me.


i feel clueless sometimes.

i wish i knew where its going to lead to coz i dont think its merely a lesson,what is it that i cant see???

[Sarian]

Maybe if you stop trying to force out an answer, it might just come on its own.