I Cried on my Very First Pray of True Thanks

Well 'true thanks' might be exaggerating, but it's really a pray of thanks.

Actually, today, I was wondering if I could pray to God for Protection. And then that's when I got confused, because I am a Buddhist, but not the type that follows the role entirely. It's just like, my religion is written Buddhist, and I hardly pray at temples. I feel like I am more a free thinker, but I do believe in Jesus and God.

Due to that confusion, that's where this topic comes in on how should I pray, and can I pray. So I Googled for answers and a few people mentioned, it's up to you who you want to believe in. In my thoughts, praying for good surely does no wrong.

I felt pretty uneasy at first, but then try to calm down and clear my mind from distractions. I put my hands together and closed my eyes, and begin my pray. At first, allow me to say again, I wanted to pray for protection from negative spirits and anything scared me, which might be my imagination as well XD I prayed, saying out my message, that it is directed to God, telling I believe in him, and also Jesus, son of God. Then, I started giving my thanks, thank you for protecting us, taking you for giving me this amazing life, thank you for everything you done. Not just God and Jesus, but also to other deities that helped do their part in helping us and the world. I even apologized for not remembering the other 'guardians' names but I continue to give my thanks to everyone.

I continue to thank, until my mind is literally focused on God, like, I was really talking to that God. As I give more and more thanks and started talking other things like, my life, able to get friends, I started to cry. I also apologized for suddenly crying and mentioned I may just be too emotional, but I really meant what I said. Oh my goodness, I am crying right now as I type this I am sorry QvQ

After I even finished my many thanks to the protectors, lovers and creator, I still continue to talk, like, I can really, talk. I felt comfortable and it was wonderful. I continued to talk and branch out to random topics and still haven't even prayed for protection. So I even said, maybe my request for protection wasn't my priority. It seems, my priority is more to giving thanks, showing I believing in God, Jesus, and every other protectors, and making a casual conversation. I have to say, it's wonderful, but a more simple word like fun can also be put in :) So I talk and talk until I realized I should stop talking, better not bother them too much pft

But I do believe I should continue this, like once in a while should work too XD it's kind of like, making a log, or making a video for Youtube. Again I say, even if I relate this with other things, my pray of thanks, and chatting, was really focused and directed to God and the others. I felt great, it's also like an accomplishment, an add of experience and, it's good XD

That's why I am suddenly typing this out right after that pray, just to share my thoughts. Thanks for reading~