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Originally Posted by ari_j23
what was it like?
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Hello
What was it like.
Hello
I thought I would take the time to share my NDE what happened what I
felt and what resonates in me still from it.
I was 21 years old I was over to a girlfriends for her Birthday. There had
been alcohol served but I had none. I was leaving to go home. It was
raining and I was on my way out the back door. I remember being on the
top of the porch and then the bottom at the cement at the bottom. There
were 18 wooden grey painted stairs. I slipped on the first one I went head
first down the stairs bouncing off each one til I hit the cement at the
bottom. Face (chin) first. I split it open to the bone too knocked out all my
teeth on impact. I was laying in a huge pool of blood.
I do not recall what I felt as I went down them. I hit so hard I say stars
going around my head like in the cartoons not a Light Tunnel like some say
they see. I say a coil coming out of my head at the top spirally upward. I
remembered saying out loud "I will not black out". My friend's family too
did not do as I asked and call an ambulance for me instead moved me and
put me in the car to the ER. Fearing I later learned a law suit from me. In
doing this they cause me more damage than they could ever know.
How do I know I did infact die. That is what haunted me for a long time
after the fall. For 6 months I had violent night mares and I could not lay
down flat without passing out....I could not of course eat as I had no
movement in my jaw. It took 6 months to get a Dr to see it was more than
trauma from the fall that I was dealing with he finally said its a waste of time
but I will sent you for an MRI. That showed the hidden damage. I had a
fracture in my neck and a large on in my jaw. That finding lead the Dr to
see that there was more with the fall that just accepting it. He then sent me
to a specialist that deals in what is now known as "Post Traumatic Stress".
There was not much known on back then. This Dr took me back to the
event. In hypnosis. To that night to what bothered me so much. What was
causing the nightmares. Like I said I thought I yelled out "I will not black
out" to learn what I really yelled out was "I will not die". That knowledge
was truly power in the healing process. I understood what I had say why I
had felt I was above my body looking down. Why I I knew how the scene
looked when I was not still there. From learning what had happened to me
that I pulled myself back in I was able to sleep that night. The grey in stairs
no longer froze me in fear if I had to go down some.
What did I take from that event forward. Well on thing is injuries that
never fully healed in the pain. Too I learned that pain can be controlled
a lot by the mind and suppressed. I learned how at times one might be able
to bring themselves back from death. I know from a cardio exam there is
damage done that shows I did have a split time of heart failure. I took too
forward a greater understanding of how fleeting life can be. Too I had ye
to have my children what I so know I came female in life to do.
I get asked if it changed or brought forth new "gifts" from the event or got
them from the event. I would say no nothing changed there in who I am.
I too think that as it was such a traumatic event the mind has shut off what I
looked like then. How bad I looked. Self protection I think.
If other's have death events they would like to share please do too know
that in talking on it there can be great healings in dealing with it happening.
Lynn
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