Face Readings? I Can't Stop Thinking About Him!

[Soul Renew]

I was wondering if anybody here has the ability to look at a picture of me and a guy I have a crush on and help me figure out what exactly is he in my life?

I have a deep but confusing crush on a guy I see at a local market.
I never took notice of him until my friend called him Mr. Positive.
I was intrigued because positivity is a good quality that is hard to find in a place where i live....

So the more I was curious, the more the feelings grew.
I ended up having my bestie, who worked there, give him a letter explaining my feelings.

I basically said I thought he was cute and couldn't stop thinking about him, but he was interfering with important things in my life (I didn't want to tell him I was experiencing the dark night of the soul!)

He ended up txting me because my bestie gave him my phone number and we talked for a good while...I told him I didn't want my feelings to grow so we should stop interacting...

Well, after two days, I got really emotional and txted him!

We met once and I absolutely adore him, like he's so cute, like a puppy i want to adopt. Everything he does, smile, talk, laugh, walk, is so cute I just want to die!!

He told me he thinks I'm cute, but doesn't have same feelings for me as I do for him.

I told him I'm going through something troubling and he said he's also going through tough time too. So we agreed we shouldn't have a relationship together...

One week later, I txted him saying if we could be friends? He said yeah, but after that, I txted him a few days later to text me back if he wants to talk, but he has not replied back after.

I have conflicting feelings revolving around him and i don't understand why!!!! I feel really drawn to him, like a magnet, I need to be around him! I want to love him so badly...It hurts... Last night, i told myself, move on from him, don't love him, and now I have a huge tension in my head and my stomach hurts. If i imagine myself cuddling him, i feel better.

I need help!

When I developed feelings for him, it opened up a past wound... A guy i had a crush on in college played with my feelings. When I confessed to him, he didn't love me back and left me crying. I asked if we could be friends however and he said yeah, but he never talked back! I also cried because he never told me he already had a girlfriend!!! I don't want to be the other girl!!!!! How could he cheat on her with me!!!!??

Well, this guy I have a crush on, he has a child...but he's not with his lover anymore.

I have cried thinking that he loves someone else, that he would cheat on me, that something bad would happen at some point if we had a relationship, but i truly adore him, i want him in my life...even though his lifestyle is completely different from mine. But the one day we met, it felt so warm and fuzzy. I felt he enjoyed it too. He seemed so happy when txting me after we met each other, but after a few hours, he was cold in his texts.

But I think he stalks my Facebook because he hasn't been on FB in years, but suddenly it shows him being very active.

When I'm not around him or I don't' see him, I feel I have no peace of mind! I get scared he may be doing something bad behind my back...
But when I see him, I feel I can trust him and I get warm feelings...

I know we barely know each other, but i feel if we both were not going through tough time, we could get to know each other...

These feelings i have for him...the bad feelings, are they foretelling a bad future between us? Or are they just fears?
Should I forget about him and move on? Yet, why can't i stop thinking about him and why am I so drawn to him?
Something about him feels so cozy... Even his mother reminds me a little of myself lol! (She has a fb)

I guess what I want to know is- is there some significance for him being in my life? I feel like there is....or maybe I need to run away from him and forget about him, even though it hurts? Is is karma? Maybe he can help me? Maybe I can help him? Is there a thread connecting us together? I've never felt this way before with someone...it's driving me crazy...