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I was actually considering this when blindsided when #3 popped into my life soon after the new year. The window of opportunity is a concert by her favorite artist tomorrow night (2 hour drive for me), where I can let Fate work its magic. I had put it on the back burner of course trying to deal (unsucessfully) with #3, but this morning I went to her Myspace page (she is an amateur singer songwriter) and on a lark listened to a few of her song samples.
It hit me full force that the first song is likely about me! The me that I was when I knew her that is-it's full of things about letting go of negativity and not knowing who I am, and so on (which was certainly true of me back then). She of course is completely ignorant of the person I've become, and I've been reluctant to reconnect because well she was married for about 20 years, nor doI wish to cause her pain by just popping back in her life. But her Myspace name is now her maiden name, so I'm guessing she got divorced.
I actually had a chance c. 4 years ago-both her parents and I still own the condos at the building where we both first met, and I heard her unmistakable voice playing the piano downstairs-this was a woman in pain tho, unmistakably so. I almost opened the door, but decided better of it to intrude.
So am I even more nuts than I am about the other woman? I'm going to my favorite nature haunt now for whatever signs if any await me. TTFN.
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