A strange reading that doesn't make sense to me

[shivatar]

I was looking at a Tetraktys spread (a snapshot of my current state) and it said this.

The Sustainer Card depicts that which helping you remain balanced and healthy.

Fire Reversed
Fire reversed denotes calamity that may be on a catastrophic level. Prepare to deal with changes you do not want.

The Destroyer Card identifies that which must be jettisoned, so you can move forward.

The Tower
The Tower upright represents change, conflict and possible catastrophe.



Calamity and dealing with changes I don't want are keeping me balanced and healthy?
Change, conflict, and catastrophy need to be jettisoned so I can move forward?

I think I see something now. I'm growing from calamities, finding my strength in the middle of a storm. being aware of how much I don't like the storm and want to change, to find shelter, is part of my healing and staying healthy.

I think the second part is saying I need to stop being attached to growing stronger, and just enjoy the shelter I find. My current habbit is to find shelter, become proud of my strength and growth, seek to have more, then go back into the storm and lose what I've gained.



Oringinally I thought it meant. Calamities are keeping me healthy. Like being miserable is healthy is what I thought. I thought the universe was telling me to stay miserable because when I'm miserable I'm healthy. I thought it was saying don't change and enjoy the misery.

[H:O:R:A:C:E]

here's how i'm reading your reading:
you are "balanced and healthy" despite the apparent calamities.
for you to recognize your health, even if only momentarily, while
within the maelstrom of catastrophes that swirl around you is
strengthening your resolve to be and remain in a healthy condition.
jettisoning your 'need' to change something about your circumstances
will help you in moving forward in the sense that you don't need to
enact any changes; since your health and well-being is present in
you currently, you just need to see it and accept it as true.
the dramas of life don't define you shivatar; you are empowered
to be the you that you desire to be, by choice, by will.

[shivatar]

Thank you H:O:R:A:C:E. Sometimes it's easy to forget that there is strength in me still. It's so easy to pretend I'm worse off than everyone else because my calamities have me believing I should be bent, broken, and worse. Sometimes it takes someone else to remind me of what I once knew and chose to forget.

Thanks again buddy.

Originally Posted by H:O:R:A:C:E

here's how i'm reading your reading:
you are "balanced and healthy" despite the apparent calamities.
for you to recognize your health, even if only momentarily, while
within the maelstrom of catastrophes that swirl around you is
strengthening your resolve to be and remain in a healthy condition.
jettisoning your 'need' to change something about your circumstances
will help you in moving forward in the sense that you don't need to
enact any changes; since your health and well-being is present in
you currently, you just need to see it and accept it as true.
the dramas of life don't define you shivatar; you are empowered
to be the you that you desire to be, by choice, by will.