I quit trying

[ragdoll]

I think I'm done trying.

1st guy was a third parent and made me feel like poo, was a stalker, I broke up with him.

Follow up with a guy who tried to make me the other woman, found out he was married.

Next guy slept around.

Next guy was a man-child.

Next guy was trying to make me into the other woman, he had a girlfriend.

I've broken it off every time this stuff came up. I had no tolerance for it. It's not even worth my time. I refuse because I know I am worth more than that.

I've done the LoA stuff, I've held out hope, I've thought positive thoughts. I've thought surely there's one guy out there who is respectful and loving, for me. I've even done my best to treat myself better and be better to myself and understand I deserve better, so that the mirror would be the person who would treat me like a person. I've done my best to not become the bitter old hag who is always angry.

So.

Right now I have someone trying to pass me off on someone and I'm just not interested either way. I feel defeated and just...go about the rest of my life by myself. I got myself this far and I just don't have it in me to put up with another round of **.

I figure all I want to know is why. I probably already know. Maybe I just need validation or what, I don't know, I'm curious as to what others think.