Kundalini as a separate entity

[BurningBush]

I've been experiencing a Kundalini awakening (or at least something that resembles one) for over 7 years, which came as a result of a series of epiphanies after a heartbreak.

The kind I'm having is not the blissful kind, closer to the opposite if anything. Any of the resulting benefits I've received have always come at a cost, possibly a greater cost than the benefits. For example, I have far fewer fears, but that has come at the cost of an almost total loss of hope.

I've realized more recently that it's as if a separate entity was let into my consciousness. I'm not delusional or irrational, but there is definitely something else there, and this thing will eventually consume me. The me that I know as "me," won't survive.