"Hello" to everyone from an atypical ADHD mind

[ServantOfAllah_93]

I could not become expert of anything for years. I have tried to juggle multiple things without being able to arrive any result in any of them. The result is 0(zero). I have been hearing schizophrenic voices for 6 years. It is extremely difficult for me to read and understand any text. I tried many things from web development to embedded systems to game engine development, writing, drawing, musical composition but couldn't become successful in any of them. I am 30 years old but achieved nothing. The previous 10 years elapsed without being able to become anything. I was recently prescribed a medicine for my ADHD, have an examination after 8 months to be accepted to computer programming associate department. When it comes to my spiritual side, my religion was initially nonexistent. I was an atheist. Then, I became agnostic after being in awe of the originally and partially unknown mystery of our consciousness compared to robots having no consciousness other than the artificial one depending on cold mathematical calculations to simulate human experience. Machines have not consciousness or soul. And later, I decided to became Muslim after starting to feel the need to seek refuge in God on me becoming targeted individual. I have been targeted individual for the previous 6 years. I don't accept any of the psychiatric diagnosis' because I was defined as gifted after getting 136 from the IQ test when I was a kid. Now, it dropped to 75 not because I have any genetic problem, but because I am being attacked in head with electromagnetic waves via the chip implanted to my head towards the end of surgery in hospital. I hear voices but these voices are not imaginary but of real people, of gangstalkers. That is, I am neither ADHD nor schizophrenic so it is all about mental torture governed by inherently retarded and irresponsible people. They are also casting random dark spells to tire and finish me. There is a heavy black magic on me as well. Thanks for reading until here, for hearing the voice of this semi-dysfunctional individual struggling to survive lots of bad treatment

[Native spirit]

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I hope you find the peace of mind that you seek. we have members here from all walks of life.


Namaste

Welcome!!!!!!!!!

[gemma]

Warm welcome and hugs to you ServantOfAllah_93...

[txsha]

Welcome! I hope you find peace and clarity

[AstralTraveller]

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