New year and a new beginning on my journey
So in 2023, I mentioned in other posts how I rediscovered a girl from my past that I think is my twin flame. Im not going to get into it that much, but the TDLR was that i tried to message this girl that I met 17 years ago (last talked to 15 years ago) and was blocked even though we have no bad history. I decided to read more about her since there is a ton of info about her on the internet and started understanding what happened to her.
Well, last night I discovered one last thing about her that has changed my mind moving forward. I saw a video she made on youtube about some trip she went on from 10 years ago. It was the first time I ever heard her voice since I was in high school. This was around the time she graduated college and was trying to figure her life out. She sounded so elegant and nice, but also a little lost. I guess this is where in her life where her old personality started to split, since who she is today is a departure from those times, at least to some degree.
I think at her core she is still an amazing person, but what is going on today is that she is trauma bounded. I saw too that she was still friends on social media with her karmic ex, while simultaneously deleted a pic of them together recently. So to me it seems like she is not over this guy. Psychologically she has alot going on and until she can return to the rest of reality, I wouldnt want to see her anyway. But I get it though, I been through similar ruts in my life, I guess I am just further along than she is.
I hope to see this girl again some day and maybe we could have a divine reunion, but if not, oh well. Its up to the universe to decide if this is destiny or not. She knows where to find me. Her best friend was one of my good friends and knows where to find me. In that video, she mentioned "this place is like meeting up again with an old friend". If she wants to meet up with that old friend again, she is always welcomed. Regardless, I wish her the best and hope she can overcome her mental battles that are making her life so hard. She is too sweet and amazing to not be happy and all I hope is that she finds happiness and can reach her hopes and dreams.
I think for me moving forward I want to try to connect with many people as possible on this planet and see where the world takes me. Is this girl really my twin flame? Am I just stuck? Only the universe knows. Time will tell. Either this will be the greatest love story of all time or another moment in my life where I am an idiot lol. I am ok with either outcome since I dont care anymore about trying to please everyone while putting myself second.
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