From what I can see and the fact that you say that you are troubled, I wonder how you're doing yourself. You talk alot about her and how you feel things should be for the two of you, which is great and it shows that you are thinking of her. However, what about you, how are you feeling right now?
What is it that you actually want?
Why is this upsetting you?
What would make you happier right now?
It may be worth thinking on these questions to help you to move forward.
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Originally Posted by NeterKhet11
It seemed the more I tried to find out how she will handle the journey on her own, she got snappy and I just had to retreat.
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I am not sure why you wanted to find out how she will handle the journey on her own, she is her own person and she has the right to take the journey on her own if she wishes. I know, you want to help her, however from what I can see here you are feeling lost yourself, how can you assist her from a lost place?
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I guess I was pushing at some point expecting her to see why we must get together. It seems all her desires vanished.
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I don't understand why you would want to push and say that you must get together, this is surely your opinion. Give her the time that she needs and respect that, she is entitled to not get together with you, if she needs that right now. Maybe in time there will be a re-connection for the two of you.
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I feel troubled though I desire the best for her and us. As far as she is concerned whatever I think now is my opinion.
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The truth is that what you think is your opinion and she does not have to fall on the side of this thinking if she does not want to. What is the desire that you have that is best for the both of you?
I ask the questions above, because maybe it will help to create some clarity, you do not have to share the answer, just maybe ponder them for yourself. Being lost in your emotions won't help you in this situation, however gaining some understanding and perspective may change the feelings that you're having surrounding her decision. In truth, all that is important right now is that you make peace with her decision, while understanding your inner wants and needs in a different way.
Nothing is written in stone, she may return once the dust settles, or she may not. However, if you get to a place where you can accept whatever happens, happens ... Then all will be well.