precognitive dreams

[FallingLeaves]

so when I was young I had several dreams I could think of as precognative, to be of things that might be to come in my life. I think of some of them sometimes and see where I am in relation.

Today I am thinking of not so much a dream but a vision I had when I was awake. I think I was kneeling near the foot of my bed for this one. It was in the summer before I met the 'twin'. But I've thought sometimes it might not be about the 'twin' after all.

i had two pictures, in succession, of a girl. The first one was like a first meeting. I no longer remember what I thought of that picture I just know it was there.

In the second one, it was like a later meeting... when she came back, it is like she somehow 'understood' and there was no more barrier between us... that is the best i can describe it anyway...

it isn't like such is a big deal to me, life is life and so much that I think of as having 'meaning' wouldn't be 'real' in the sense that I could share it with others in any physical way... but sometimes life has the strangest way of weaving themes together even over a very long time...
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of course I used to be mad
that if I said such things
someone
would later regurgitate it
for some nefarious reason

i felt so put upon!

so
I would naturally want
to not say such things.

Now though I think
if such things come up
even though I've said them before
it is sweet
for the memory
and who cares why
the idea is sitting there?

It isn't like
I can keep god from hurting me
if he decides
that is what I need
anyway

so
i might as well
stop and smell the roses
if i'm lucky enough to have the chance!