my sense is that you have loving spiritual energy within you,
and that seeking for it from outside sources is unneeded.
the traffic jam, which hinders the free flow of Will energy might
be due to applying external 'light' to inform your situation...
that could manifest as judgments which cause stagnation and
entropy.
the "road rage" anger may effectively melt away the ice that
stymies the free flow of Will energy... bring your male energy
love light into the service of freeing your will from that congestion.
direct all those well behaved, mixed race children into doing that.