Are you afraid of death?

[metal68]

What frightens me the most is the prospect of non existence; its just like you never existed, the scariest thing is you wouldn't even know the moment of it; I can't even begin to comprehend it, people suggest a blackness but you wouldn't even perceive that, its just the complete absence of everything.
Maybe because you can actually only perceive existence perhaps from a subjective pov that very last nanosecond of awareness stretches into a personal infinity or something. You cannot perceive non existence as there is no you and I find that utterly terrifying. Its what Im struggling the most with over my mother's passing. It's the main reason I'm here to find answers, if there is more. I know I wont find scientific evidence, I doubt we ever will, but I'm here to examine people's own experiences on apparitions , NDEs & mediumship. My sister has experienced an NDE and there was paranormal activity in my home 30 years ago so I have some personal experience. The mediumship seems to offer some of the most compelling accounts BUT is the one most susceptible to fraud or a genuine but mistaken belief in a 'gift'. Also telepathy hasn't been ruled out in the more convincing cases. I come here with a very open mind but with a tough heart to convince. I hope people on here are willing to share their experiences and at the very least let me share in their personal convictions. And they will understand why I might have many questions and not jump to ill conclusions for example that I am suggesting they have made it all up. I will never automatically jump to that conclusion although like most, I like to think I can tell if I am being taken for a ride.