Was this my higher self speaking to me?

[GoldenEmbers]

Hi,

I made a post that describes the exact same thing, though I deleted and lost it.

I'm wondering how I can communicate with my higher self and Am I actually hearing the voice of my higher self?

I believe I am because I have three voices in my head. Me talking to and comforting myself, My ego voice and what I believe to be my higher self.

Okay, so I often wake up at 3 in the morning due to panic attacks. I had to force myself to go to sleep somehow, so, I used this technique. It's basically meditation, but in the meditation I focus on something beautiful. I will close my eyes, lie In bed and breath deeply, in and out, then I will, at the same time, Imagine a beautiful place. One such place is a place I created for a story I am going to write. It's a victorian house, I am in a big beautiful garden of purple and pink blooms that surrounds the house, The sky is blue and the sun shines most all of the time.

Well, i had used this technique one time about a few days ago, and I heard a soft, comforting voice. I was consoling myself at the time, and did not expect to hear a voice. I kept telling myself, It's going to be okay. then the voice responded yes it is. I don't remember exactly what she had said, because I was basically putting myself in this dream like, hypnogogic state. It was hypnogogic and when I come out of that state I have to write things down fast or I can't remember them.

Anyway, The voice was SO CLEAR. Not exactly loud, because she was just as loud as my ego self, who had freaked me out!

The ego voice said, "Heaaaaaattthhhheeerrr, SHE'S WATCHING YOU!" and one of those images of a samara looking girl with white eyes appeared in my minds eye, but I knew it was my ego voice trying to scare me, well, as soon as I got past that I began to feel this safe loving presence, who I suspected to be my higher self. Before when I saw the girl with black hair, which of course, was just a fear and a just a dream of mine (It actually was a picture i saw online at a young age LOL)

Back to the main point, I later envisioned a girl with brown hair that glowed amber in the sunlight, this I suspect was my higher self, but It could've just been me dreaming because after all I was in the half awake half asleep state. So I basically envisioned this safe place in my mind, then I heard her voice. It was crystal clear speaking and not as in my face as the ego voice.

She had a very soft, calming voice and a reassuring, safe presence. I felt really loved and safe overall.

I once meditated for just 4 days and had some pretty mind blowing experiences! One time I had a tablet in hand and was watching a spiritual video. Well, I started to fall asleep (this was after one of my meditation sessions) and In my hypnogogic state I began feeling myself drawing a circle interconnected with another circle. So, I was basically drawing a diagram. Then I violently jerk awake. On the tablet at that very moment, was a diagram!!!! The person in the video NEVER EVEN MENTIONED a diagram or circles. He called it a vescica peces (not sure if that is spelled right, sorry!)

After, these meditations I began experiencing incredible synchronicites and in general, just KNOWING and FEELING the answer to questions I've had. I would even know, mostly, feel future events and often predicted them right! It reminds me of this one time, I had been meditating and in my meditation, I accidentally fell in the hygnagogic state. Well, while i was in it, I had this crazy vision dream thing where I was flying through a tunnel of purple- blue sparkles, the background was black. I'm not sure what was on the other side of the sparkle tunnel thing because I was so shocked I woke up completely!

I just feel that those are some of the times, my higher self tried getting to me. (communicating with me) I just never heard her voice up until now.

Am I really hearing her voice, I feel sure when In that state, but when I'm awake and doing normal everyday things, I doubt my experiences.

Anyway,

Thanks again, It's a long read (AGAIN, sorry), but I need some help in understanding this. Also, has anyone else had similar experiences they'd like to share, I would LOVE to read some.

-Heather.