good grief I just re-read my post. Note to self: do not post through the phone (unless I have my reading glasses on)... oi...
Hello Hazada!
Thank you for your kind words. She has indeed been battling with herself, as a doctor, she feels that there was "something" that she could have done to prevent, delay or even "cure" mom. Of course, there is little to nothing she could have done that we did not try. As a physician, she adhered to mom's wishes and kept her active in the decisions of her own treatment, which IMHO is a lot.
In my eyes, she did all she could and far more. As an ENT she does not deal with cancer or cancer related problems, but that was a yo-yo she did play and was good at it. I do not feel that my mother's medical care was neglected or fell short at anytime.
At some point during all this ordeal, mom went for an endoscopy, and my sister worries that the bruises in my mom's body were caused by her, though I believe that it was the people at the endoscopy cabinet. As they were mostly students without experience and a physician who would be better at selling shoes.
The information you tell me from her regardign pain is very important. Mom at the beginning of her last week kept preying and begging my sister for her not to feel pain, she was very scared of suffering. So my sister did the best she could
As you can imagine, mom did dabble a couple of times on "going off in her own terms" but being a catholic herself and a devoute one, she dismissed it as soon as she tought about it. Still the feat of pain was there ang it grew stronger as the days passed.
That is why any and all information that can be given to me, by your meditation guys, divnation tools and own gifts will be most welcomed. And in this particular case, it will be of the best help to my sister to hear it from people who are not me
Love you, Hazada, 3,000 2