Non-existence state of meditation
Recently I started to experience this "non-existence" state of meditation, it's very similar with what we experience when we sleep, we go to sleep and in one moment we wake up hours later.It's very peculiar because when I "come back", I suffer from amnesia, I can't remember where I was or what happened, sometimes I even think about when I started to meditate, I can't remember.It's like the whole reality ceases to exist, including my very own existence.I have no awareness and when I return back, I feel my awareness coming back too.
Last night when it happened again, I was thinking what just happened because I could not remember where I really was and also I could not remember when I started to meditate.
I experienced this amnesia when I had a very shocking accident that left me completely "empty" of my memories, I just could not remember who I was and where I was.
When I start to meditate, sometimes, when I reach this state, just before reaching it, I feel that I am called somewhere and my body enters in a dormant state, then I can only "feel" my awareness and few moments later everything disappears, the outside world disappears, the inner world disappears, my awareness of my own self disappears too.
You may say that I fall asleep but I know how it feels when I fall asleep and I wake up later on ( it happened many times ), I know that I was in fact sleeping, but when this happens, it's like I became part of the ocean of nothingness, there's no longer the "I".
Have you experienced something like this?
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