I think I may have been not very nice....

Hello, I thought I would see if anyone else has had incredibly tough experiences and wonders if this might be a paying of their karmic debt? I suffer schizophrenia which included 1000 days of constant waking nightmares, all ingeniously different and horrifying I have yet to come to terms with any of it...Yeh it was bad. But I see huge providence in what I went through, because now I am much, much better, the experiences are far less intense and my life has become awesome! I have a great girl friend, lovely flat, brilliant friends and family, potential to succeed and constant helping from the angels and God. I see proof of this darker self who I was paying for in my consciousness, the force of absolute evil inside me was incredible, and fairly terrifying.

I battled and battled this part of me for years as well as many other parts of my illness but this consciousness suffered with me and is now being cleansed! So I was wondering if anyone thinks this is possible or has actually happened to them? It is obvious to me that this was God's plan and I was a very naughty boy/girl in a previous life. Feel no shame if you are, we all pay our dues, if more people knew that then the world would be a far better place!