the nicest words I could hear

Kalika · #1 30-09-2016, 08:10 AM

"Welcome to Awakening! Enjoy it!"

These were the nicest words to receive. Life for me has done a 360. I'm new to spiritual terminology, in fact new to it period.

Onwards and upwards? I hope. I'm noticing things are a little different, and I'm not sure if it's because I have just come to realise I have shadow work to do.

Things are just different and I can't put a name to it. Though I immensely appreciated those five words above. I've since moved beyond what I will call my TF - or is that limerent object? Either way, I am past the intense feelings and obsession. I am now viewing them as a 'whole' (dark side included).

I am now looking at integrating my shadow. Again, this is all new to me so I have no idea where to start. All I know is that I have nothing but unconditional regard for TF. For opening me up to... feeling. For this first time, I can say, it is okay to sit with ANY feeling and let it be.

Now what? I'm so confused.

Squatchit · #2 30-09-2016, 02:30 PM

Now what?

Just be.

Kalika · #3 30-09-2016, 06:18 PM

I know. This is the part where I feel like throwing it all in. Closing this account and never looking at spirituality again.

Just live like I always have. Well, I can finally say I can FEEL for the first time, thanks to TF. Suppose that is something out of all of this

I actually came back to see if I could delete this thread and close down my account. Think I'll leave it for a bit and see if anything manifests.

Blessings to all

Sarian · #4 30-09-2016, 06:22 PM

Is there a negative switch to your attitude since you first posted or am I reading this wrong?

Kalika · #5 30-09-2016, 07:56 PM

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Originally Posted by Sarian

Is there a negative switch to your attitude since you first posted or am I reading this wrong?

I think so. Thank you for pointing this out.

Overall I've been positive, on cloud 9. Now I feel as though I've hit a brick wall 'spiritually'. I know I have a lot of work to do.

I did wonder if this 'crash' would occur or perhaps there are too many blockages. I don't know. I'm feeling rather frustrated. Almost as if... 'is this it?'

Perhaps this is where I surrender? And wait for guidance? I'm not getting any. Zilch. Though I will try and keep an open mind.

Tigerlily3 · #6 02-10-2016, 09:08 PM

Whatsername, OMG, you hit the nail on the head..I have been feeling the same way suddenly.I was on cloud 9 also, then suddenly dropped.I think this must be a natural process people go through as the ascend spirituality. I myself, am feeling blockages. As I have been doing my meditations, which I felt comfortable and mostly unblocked before, I am experiencing feelings popping up such as not being worthy, sadness, (basically alot of worthlessness).These negative feelings needs to come up I think, addressed, and then set free to be transmuted into light...With me, I seemed to be going at such a fast speed for some reason with growth, that I don't know if I am skipping processes of healing..Not by choice..It just seems things are happening and going fast.I find myself wasnting to learn..Looking for answers.Seeking knowledge. I think I need to slow down...Stay awhile..Your post actually helped me open up.I am grateful for that ♡ Hope you all have a beautiful day.

shivatar · #7 02-10-2016, 09:23 PM

I can think of 3 possibilites.

- brain simply used up all the happy energy and couldn't sustain said mood any longer = crashing

- one is faceing a new obstacle and has failed to overcome it = crashing

- there is no obstacle, the mood is a consequence of biology and does not respond to stimuli, inner generated or outer

also these answers are not yes or no because I dont know everything, I think there can also be close answers to mine. Example, there is no obstacle, but the mood is changable due to inner stimuli (meditation, thought, etc).

just offering 3 possibilities

Jared.L · #8 04-10-2016, 08:50 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by whatsername

"Welcome to Awakening! Enjoy it!"

These were the nicest words to receive. Life for me has done a 360. I'm new to spiritual terminology, in fact new to it period.

Onwards and upwards? I hope. I'm noticing things are a little different, and I'm not sure if it's because I have just come to realise I have shadow work to do.

Things are just different and I can't put a name to it. Though I immensely appreciated those five words above. I've since moved beyond what I will call my TF - or is that limerent object? Either way, I am past the intense feelings and obsession. I am now viewing them as a 'whole' (dark side included).

I am now looking at integrating my shadow. Again, this is all new to me so I have no idea where to start. All I know is that I have nothing but unconditional regard for TF. For opening me up to... feeling. For this first time, I can say, it is okay to sit with ANY feeling and let it be.

Now what? I'm so confused.

Then do what you feel needs to be done! Feel, love, enjoy life

#9 04-10-2016, 08:59 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by whatsername

"Welcome to Awakening! Enjoy it!"

These were the nicest words to receive. Life for me has done a 360. I'm new to spiritual terminology, in fact new to it period.

Onwards and upwards? I hope. I'm noticing things are a little different, and I'm not sure if it's because I have just come to realise I have shadow work to do.

Things are just different and I can't put a name to it. Though I immensely appreciated those five words above. I've since moved beyond what I will call my TF - or is that limerent object? Either way, I am past the intense feelings and obsession. I am now viewing them as a 'whole' (dark side included).

I am now looking at integrating my shadow. Again, this is all new to me so I have no idea where to start. All I know is that I have nothing but unconditional regard for TF. For opening me up to... feeling. For this first time, I can say, it is okay to sit with ANY feeling and let it be.

Now what? I'm so confused.

All good and nice to hear!

It's strange that - just how it is - that things seem to be the same but they're very different. You're seeing them through opened eyes. How the view is different and mostly beautiful. There will be clouds but they all come with the familiar silver lining.

Oh yes, it'll be confusing but take things a little at a time. You've entered a great upheaval but it is manageable at your own pace. Spend time contemplating the insights you've received, the things you're learning. Don't worry too much about terminology - you are on a road to perfecting yourSelf. I hope this isn't bad news! but I'd better break it to you: it's a lifetime pursuit............... but won't necessarily be as intense and chaotic as seems right now.

All the best with your progress.

Chrysalis · #10 04-10-2016, 04:45 PM

Hello whatshername,

I want to share an experience.

On my path, I reached a point where I went through an upheaval process. Things happened at a fast pace. I had an emotional rollercoaster ride and lots of ideas running through my mind. For my emotions, I acknowledged them for what they were. As for the ideas, there were so many I was overwhelmed with them and didn't know which one to start with so that caused confusion and frustration.

Shortly after the fast pace, it slowed down and then I took the time to consider the ideas. I also continued with meditation to help even out my emotions.

All I'm saying here is the fast pace will slow down and calmness will return and that meditation helped me.

I don't know if any of what I said will be helpful.