Have you ever imagined your own Death?

[Tal M.]

Ok, first - Disclaimer:
This is by no means a post about promoting suicide by any means, I'm not suicidal and I don't even permit it. To anyone. There's always hope.

So now that this is behind us,

I actually ask., if you.. tried to imagine.. or ever went through a phase where you fantasized about death?

And if yes, what did you find out? What went through your mind when you pictured what'd happen after?
What would be your perspective, over your life when you look back, or the afterlife, as a soul?
"Were" you filled with freedom? and of insights, of things to let go of, and things to hold onto, that you can affirm out of the observation, right now?
Were you filled with frustration and regret?
Did it open you up to new possibilities, or closed you down?
You can contemplate on it right now.
What is after that dark portal, so to speak, in your exprience? Forget what you know, what you learned, what... do you experience - in your feeling, sensory body language of intelligence, when you dive deep into the concept?

This is by a random happenstance I once heard, a process by a spiritual leader, for observation of new insights to use for life. But... now, it's not about her,
It's... my own desire to.. open this up, for you guys, and by you guys. Let's stop making it taboo. It is my desire that the light of our consciousness will be shined on everything inside us, including our darkness. That is the whole point of spiritual development, isn't it?
So.. I'd like to hear about your experiences.. and maybe I'll share mine too afterwards