Good morning everyone. Newbie here.

[blush1970]

Help please!!!!!
My story is below. I appreciate all input and insight.

Have a great day!!

When we met we both said, what is this? It was like the union of a planet that had been split in half. Actually if I remember correctly he is the one that said, ``what is this``? and my response was ``I don`t know but it`s not Zoosk`` (a dating site that where we were both members). Even before we met face to face we spoke of possible soulmates because the connection was so strong even though had only communicated a couple of times on the telephone.

Finally standing in front of one another, he looked at me like he was trying to figure out who I was, where he had seen me before kind of with a quizzical, head tilted questioning look. We sat down and literally within 4 minutes I was fused to his side, like it is where I belonged all along. I could not get close enough and the image that kept coming to me was that I wanted to cut a line down the length of his side, under his arm and crawl in. Literally slit open his body and crawl into the cavity where his soul resides. Before we met, again face to face I had the strongest urge that the first thing I wanted to do was lay my head on his heart, feel his soul. I even sent him an email telling him this. In essence, feel his soul, feel my soul. It was the part of him that I wanted to know the most and we had not even seen each other yet.

Then the storm of hell in me began. The dreams, and lights, feeling physically sick and sad, tears and confusion. Dreams of being shot in the head at point blank range (4 bullets) and then waking immediately refreshed and energized. A hurricane of events like my former husband (separated in September 2015) committing suicide, my niece attempting suicide (thankfully unsuccessfully), isolating myself because I felt I really needed to, feeling ``crazy``. All of this started when our energies collided. Signs, symbols and colours, goose-bumps, heart palpitations. Chaos before the cosmos as he called it. Meeting him was the catalyst to the beginning of the destruction of my ego and the increase in my vibrational energy. And man, it just keeps coming. One question again from him``who am I`` began the quest.

We have an intimate, physical relationship but ……I don`t know how to describe it and I am normally pretty good at putting words to feelings, it is about the union, sharing each other not about sex (although we do desire each other).

It`s when I am with him I am with myself. Being with him is like being with me. It`s easy, natural, simple. And then it gets complicated as soon as we are apart. And he pulls away so there are intervals when I don`t see him for a long time. This is suffering. Excruciating suffering. Being separate from him brings me actual physical and spiritual pain. As if I am being severed in half right in the area where my heart lives. Could this be ego though?

Help please. Is this a twin soul relationship?

[knightofalbion]

A very warm welcome to the forum, dear soul

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Welcome Blush :)

[wolfgaze]

Howdy Blush....