I possibly may be an earth angel..?

I just signed up for this website, and I've always been wanting to share my experience with this.

I looked more into what earth/incarnated angels are, and I identified myself as possibly being one.. As a child, for some reason, I was always despised and picked on by many of the students. I was known to be different and somehow not fit in with everyone. I felt different. I was always sad and depressing, yet I still am. Grew up without school friends, but as I grew older I enjoyed helping people.

I had a terrible childhood. I was abused verbally and physically, and for some reason, I forgave the person who did that to me. I forgave the trauma that they gave me. It made me angry, but I just seem too forgiving.

When I was 13, I was raped and abused again. And I forgave the person for doing this to me. It took time to get over the anger and sadness it had brought upon me, and yet, I still forgave him. I wanted to be his friend. Everyone else says that you can never forgive a person for doing this to you.. why did I?

I was born as a very quiet and shy person. Society today.. I can't relate to it. I just feel different. I've always been interested in finding my true purpose rather than facebook, or T.V, or any other social networks. Whenever I talk to people, I either just can't relate to them, or I am helping them out through a problem. I became suicidal at some points, giving the excuse of wanting to return home in god's hands. I felt as if I never belonged here. My main goal, ever since I was a child, was to restore peace to the earth.

Out of everyone that has fallen in love with me (which oddly, every guy I dated fell deeply in love with me to where they made commitments of living with me in the afterlife) has had a huge positive impact from me. I realized as I got involved with relationships, men have fallen so deeply in love with me, each relationship lasting for 1-2 years. Usually, the teenage society defines that otherwise. I saw somewhere that earth angels, for some odd reason, stay in relationships longer than a usual person my age would.

Later in the years, I looked more into the terms of angels and found that I was very very similar to them. I don't know much about them though... can somebody hit me up with information? Their purpose? And if I possibly am one of them?

I'm 15 years old, by the way... I'm sorry if I'm too young for this forum. I'm just really curious about this.