A stark cold wakeup call
Entering into the known
Yet not known
Aware, yet unaware, becoming aware
A deep primal scream unleashed
The dogs all howl in unison
Heralding their own awakening
Gasping for that first breath
Choking on life's contents
Already masking the air
Feeling the overloaded burdens
When held close in the arms of fear
The arms of love somewhere in there
Reaching from a distance past
The beginning of the end
Now in motion
I am here
But where am I?
Confused, disorientated, dazed
I fling my body in every direction
Seeking to end this feeling in me
To stop what doesn't allow me to be still
Calm, peaceful, at rest
I cannot breath deep enough
It feels so hard and difficult
I feel like I am striving here
I have to get out of this place
I cant stay here!
My throat is burning
My heart is pumping hard
My body is contorted
Desperate to end this struggle
To end this feeling
This feeling of life and death at the same time
Somewhere in between
I am here, stuck
I cant get out
No one is here to help me
I am alone
It is dark
I am afraid
"The known and unknown born in me"
I fight, I take flight
I need to end this nightmare
This "terror", my greatest "fear"
Where can I run too?
How do I get out of here?
Life and death
The in breath
The out breath
This place of nothing
This place of something
In between, somewhere
This is my altered reality
My living nightmare
A tell tale sign
A struggle to survive
I don't want to die
I know I am here, somewhere
I know I have arrived some place
It is all so very dark in this strange place
This strange but knowing space
Unable to see
I feel my way
Aware and sensing
There is no where to run
I am here, right here with it all
It is "NOW"
Slowly my body relaxes
Everything subsides
Something changes
Something ends
My breath moves from shallow
To deep inhalations
In and out
It feels easy now
There is no strain
No burning feeling
It feels peaceful
That time is over
In time
I reach for my all seeing eye
This my greater bridge
My deeper lasting greater breath
My source
My companion
A familiar cocoon
My deep inner nurture
A sustaining flow
Peacefulness
Safe in this place
My mother home
My garden of Eden
Where my breath no longer
Remains trapped between worlds
I now breathe deeply
Into the greater world
As it is, as it will be
As thy will be done..
"Space Oddity"
This is Major Tom to Ground Control
I'm stepping through the door
And I'm floating
in a most peculiar way
And the stars look very different today