Hey everyone,
I wanted to write this post because I feel I may need some help in understanding and I don't know who or what is able to inspire me to the 'ah-ha' moment.
So I am a single male with a history of failed relationships. I have had a handful of profound experiences on a spiritual level with different partners and only an even smaller bunch still visit me in my memories. I get the sense that they are on my mind so they are yet to still serve me a purpose; a lesson to learn. One time I had a vision where I saw an entity that was half me and half my then partner; this being was me and also not me. This being knew me and also was glad we met and as was I. I saw this as a version of myself that I was then able to accept and I can see how this has done well for me.
Although single, I am and I do (or I believe I do) make sure I do not hinder myself from the opportunity of love. I do my best to socializing, I interact, and most of all I am honest. I think my being honest is the only consistent personality trait that i can carry on through all my experiences without displaying another version of me.
I have babbled and lost my point... My point is; how is there are so many people that just instinctively know where they are at with their twin flame progress? Either they have met already or have sensed they are going to meet? or have transitioned their relationship to service for humanity..
All I want to know is if i'm supposed to have a partner in this or fight alone. Sometimes I let my world get on top of me in hopes that my equal would come along and share the rains..
If I knew I was meant to dance 3D all by myself then this is fine. Albeit a very tough and saddening cookie to swallow.. and I'll do it. I would just like to
By this point I realize that all I have to do is go within for the answers...
I've made a lot of sacrifices in my life; all in the hopes that someone else will benefit. I have more than once put my emotions and my 'ness' on the back burner for someone else so I know I can do it. I believe I have good intentions so I use that as an excuse to not be accountable for my behavior.
I feel a lot of things and even in this community where I know people are more alike me than ever before.. I still feel alone. I still don't want to put my hand up in case the teacher scolds me for not knowing the answers. I still work myself tirelessly to get it right for my parents validation. I still say and do things I don't mean nor like of myself for the affection of others.