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Originally Posted by Soul Renew
I've never had past life regression before, but I feel this is the best place to post my topic because I feel held back from life due to "experiences" that never happened to me in this life.
Right now I am dealing with feelings as if I've been cheated on by someone that I thought I could trust my life with. This person cheated on me with someone else that was close to me, like a best friend.
This morning, i was on my knees, and I cried heavily and just decided to say things that a betrayed person would say to a cheater. It made me feel better. I then sat on a bed and looked at a chair across from me. I pretended that someone was sitting there, the cheater, and just talked and unloaded my hurt. I also felt better because I comforted myself in the process and said I deserved better and I'll be ok.
But I've never had a boyfriend before...
Also, I feel like saying no to my family members when they ask me to do simple things because it raises feelings of being overused by someone who would always command and demand from me.
I've had a few dreams of a female figure not respecting my privacy and always commanding me without remorse.
There have been times where I feel like shouting "NO! DO IT YOURSELF" to nobody and I feel so much better.
I don't want to sound crazy, but I really feel they're linked to past life because I think my soul carried those feelings from the past, but in this life, my brain just can't really pinpoint where. My brain only knows what happened to me in this life, not the past life.
Since I've been dealing with this, I've felt shut down and not interested in talking to people. I'm more interested withdrawing and listening to my feelings. I think I really dug deep in my soul to have had these emotions come out. It may have explained my own fears of being cheated on if I ever have a boyfriend and I have attracted people who resemble the demanding woman in my dreams.
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I've had dreams that i feel like connected me to a past life for a reallllly long time. The older I get, the more vivid they are. I wake up confused and panicked when i have these dreams. I spend my whole day with de ja vu's. I dream of dying, seeing my wife and child right before I die and i wake up gasping for air. I've had the dreams for a while. Sometimes i'll have the dream of dying for nights in a row. Sometimes i'll have dreams of looking out on a lake. Sometimes i'll have dreams about driving around.
I don't want to dig in to 'who i was' really. I've not done regression. i've thought about going to someone, but haven't just out of fear of what will come to light.
I get withdrawn a lot lately. I've got a connection with vintage books, watches, anything that makes me feel 'at home.' But i've always been like that. It settles everything for a moment when i'm feeling off, to just open and read some W.H. Auden or turning on some early Rolling Stones :)
There will always be that longing you can't quite place. I think that happens with everyone.