Any sense in this? killed myself and paying back in a strange way?

Ever since I started meditating, a lot of my childhood memories started coming back to me.

I remembered as a little boy, I used take small rulers, or anything made of wood, and imagine that it's a knife/sword and imagine stabbing myself with it.

And as I am an insulin dependant diabetes, I need to constantly administer insulin using a penfill needle by piercing it to my tummy. One day, while giving myself the injection, a thought came to that that I've once killed myself.

Does this makes sense that having impaled myself in one of my incarnation, I'm now paying back as a diabetic? I wasn't born a diabetic, I got it at the age of 3, a juvenile diabetes.

[athribiristan]

Originally Posted by LivingSoul

Ever since I started meditating, a lot of my childhood memories started coming back to me.

I remembered as a little boy, I used take small rulers, or anything made of wood, and imagine that it's a knife/sword and imagine stabbing myself with it.

And as I am an insulin dependant diabetes, I need to constantly administer insulin using a penfill needle by piercing it to my tummy. One day, while giving myself the injection, a thought came to that that I've once killed myself.

Does this makes sense that having impaled myself in one of my incarnation, I'm now paying back as a diabetic? I wasn't born a diabetic, I got it at the age of 3, a juvenile diabetes.

Makes sense to me. I was POW in one life and had my teeth pulled out as torture. In this life I have horrible teeth, they literally fall apart in my mouth. That's one issue I could do without.

As far as the diabetes goes, that may or may not be related. I would just assume that you are correct about having stabbed yourself.

absolutely possible - it makes sense. and glad you are working through it this life.

Originally Posted by LivingSoul

Does this makes sense that having impaled myself in one of my incarnation, I'm now paying back as a diabetic? I wasn't born a diabetic, I got it at the age of 3, a juvenile diabetes.

More of a reminder than a payback so that you can work through the issues that brought you to that point. You'd only be paying back if you believed so. More often than not, Past Life recall is about the issues rather than the act itself, so this is an opportunity to look at it and what led you to it from a different perspective and resolve them. I would say your diabetes has more to do with this this Life than any other.

Could be true.

I know that when I compared with one of my earlier lives my health issues back then were pretty much the same as in this life..

Of course, now I cultivate in Falun Dafa and I have perfect health but before that I had miserable health.

Thanks for the replies everybody. I can now sleep in peace at night.

Knowing, that I'm here to work out what I failed to cherish in my previous incarnation, which is... life.

Thanks once again for clearing my doubts. And thanks to google for leading me here.

Originally Posted by Gauss

Could be true.

I know that when I compared with one of my earlier lives my health issues back then were pretty much the same as in this life..

Of course, now I cultivate in Falun Dafa and I have perfect health but before that I had miserable health.

Glad to hear that you've cultivated a perfect health in this life.

Originally Posted by athribiristan

Makes sense to me. I was POW in one life and had my teeth pulled out as torture. In this life I have horrible teeth, they literally fall apart in my mouth. That's one issue I could do without.

As far as the diabetes goes, that may or may not be related. I would just assume that you are correct about having stabbed yourself.

Wow, I don't know if I would have strength like yours to live through it. I believe that all of us will meet again, in a forum or physically as friends or colleagues in a future life, and you might be a dentist who's helping me with my tooth problems.

[Internal Queries]

lol when i was a kid i used to pretend i was tied up and tortured by evil secret agents. was that a past life pattern or the fact that "Man from U.N.C.L.E." was my favorite TV show?

Originally Posted by Greenslade

More of a reminder than a payback so that you can work through the issues that brought you to that point. You'd only be paying back if you believed so. More often than not, Past Life recall is about the issues rather than the act itself, so this is an opportunity to look at it and what led you to it from a different perspective and resolve them. I would say your diabetes has more to do with this this Life than any other.

Looking into the issues, sounds like an uphill task to me, and I don't even know where to start.