Really in need of help, healing and guidance

[Aislynn]

Ok, I’m empatic. It’s made my life a living nightmare. I DO understand it can be a gift but more often it feels like a curse. I have yet to find anyone that can help me. I’ve had no guidance at all. I’ve just tried to stuff it all deep down which has made things worse for me as you can imagine.

I can’t deny this part of me anymore. I’m miserable, anxiety ridden. Depressed. Stuffing it down clearly isn’t working. At all. But letting it fly and ‘go with the flow’, the idea makes me physically ill.

I need to grow spiritually. I feel like I’m being called. Like- wake up! I’m trying. But I’m having a really super hard time. Partly because I feel I need 1 good spiritual friend to talk one-on-one with. Hopefully someone who is spiritually enlightened that can provide some insight, help with my healing that will enable me to move forward.

I know I have a higher calling. I sense I’m supposed to help others. But I first have to help myself, help me.

I know the internet is filled with people who say they can help, for money. Usually big money. I don’t have it. I understand people need to make a living, I simply do not have it available.

It’s not like this is something generally talked about where you might actually come across someone irl. I know I’ve learned to keep my mouth shut the hard way.

So the only thing I know to do is to post here, hoping someone will feel called to step in and connect with me.

I’m just so lost and I cannot continue living like this. I can’t. It needs to change, I need to change. I feel like I’m in a cocoon waiting to metamorpihize and come forth. If that makes any sense.

And now I feel stupid. I feel like I may be crazy. Ok, I’m just going to **** up now.

Thank you in advance for any advice, guidance and comments.

In love and light,
Ais