I am losing my spirituality. Why?

[Baile]

Originally Posted by The Necromancer

http://www.themystic.org/dark-night/

That's a helpful link!

[Shivani Devi]

Originally Posted by Baile

That's a helpful link!

Of course it is, because I didn't write it.

[LadyMay]

It's natural to go through waves, in anything in life. Spirituality included. Maybe your brain just wants a break for a while. Go do something else. Come back to it at a later date.

[shivatar]

Originally Posted by hellabomer

But doesn't Universe punish us if we are a bad person and trying to be good but relapse at times?

Nope.

it's just you punishing yourself.

You need to let go of the dogma of others and see that you are just a person learning and living life. The bad that you percieve is not evil in Gods eyes or the universe.

[shivatar]

Originally Posted by hellabomer

I am becoming less and less spiritual. In fact, I feel scared of God. I'd blame it on the bad and evil thoughts that I get in my mind at times. It makes me feel like I am unworthy of finding God now. I don't feel like going to any spiritual place, and it makes me feel dejected. Why is it happening? Have any of you experienced something like that? I want to be a pure soul again.

I think you have some errors in your understanding.

You say you're becoming less spiritual, but I think what you mean is "im becoming less positive in my spirituality". Sometimes people experience a sort of paradise spirituality, their initial entrance into spirituality is all about the positive and excludes the negative. However this state of optimistic delusion cannot last for ever unless a person becomes a hermit and avoids contact with others.

God isn't some guy in the sky with a white beard. God isn't a person who is constantly watching your every move and making pluses and minuses in a book like santa clause with the naughty and nice list.

God knows that intrusive thoughts happen to humans. People have very little influence over which thoughts that come into their minds, as we grow older we may develop more influence if we desire that skill but even then we are still not guranteed to be masters of our thoughts. God MADE the brain, God knows the way it works and how things can intrude into it. God doesn't judge the creation for the way he created it. God judges our free will, the way we use the creation God gave us (our body and divine spark of life). If you choose to act on the evil thoughts that come into your head, now thats a different story. Perhaps God will judge us on those when we die (God doesn't come down and judge us at intervals, he judges our life as a whole when we die). Our life is a painting, God judges the final picture, not the millions of rough drafts we make before death.

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God would enjoy your company no matter what. The more you believe you are evil and unworthy of the company of God, the more God feels your pain as if it were Gods own pain.

God just wants to be your friend. Like a friend he may speak sternly to guide you in the direction of your best possible self, but he will never condemn you for who you are. If you condemn yourself God will respect your will. God will also welcome you back with open arms should you ever grow cold and desire the warmth of Gods love.