Every time I try to cut, it comes back

[lyzth]

Hello

I am not sure whether I am in the right section.
I have tried for years cut energetic bonds that have been established -- without my free will -- with someone. I really have tried.
This bond is not healthy, it makes me sad and down, it hurts me bad.
The last night I have tried again, but while trying to finish my decision (of never ask for help) I heard a voice (quite slow) asking me for not going away. Unfortunately, the same thing really happened years ago, and that time was the person asking me that. At that time the person was really angry with me because I decided to go away for the sake of all. I need to set me free from this. I really appreciate to take my sanity back. I am very sad right now, and I know I need to be my best friend. How can I suppose to cope with this forever? Is there any way to get free from the energy of someone you do not want to hear, see, and know about anymore? One thing I need to make clear: I do not hate the person. Actually I pray for this person be happy and have lights. I just feel that the energy the person brings to me paralyzes me, and it was different before, it was harmonic, balanced. But now it is the energy of trapping. I have prayed God to set me free. I know I also need to perform my part in this situation. I have done everything I could to never ever see or hear about this person.
I keep on my decision.
However, there are situations I cannot avoid, because they do not depend on my free will. And each of such situations makes me fall in a big hole again. And these situations put me in depression. How can I change it? How can I work on myself to shift my feelings?
Thank you.
All the best.