A part of my recent history

I would like to name this 'Love, a part of my recent history' but I have a feeling love can be/become for me fathomless.... I will explain -

On middle Spring of 2021 (a difficult year, and a turning point globaly during the Coronavirus) I had the chance to fly to an island where I have a home having seen especially one dream with a girl coming to me from a palace with two sharks that when they approached they were transformed as dolphins.

I decided really at the day of departing not to go because of a little fear I sensed in my left body (another term for the left side of the energy body) and a mistrust on my ticket being on Latin characters while my ID had a Greek letter before the numbers...

I decided not to go... During the Coronavirus I had my own mind set that I didn't want to get trapped on the island....

The moment I canceled the flight, the light changed, and I realized , amidst my stuborness when taking a decision, that my choice was wrong...

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I have been downgrading from that day gradually with a very few glades.

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I had another dream that the girl was sailing away with Jesus in tears for me...

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To cut the stroy shorter, I have been on contact with this girl till the present day. I have felt that our love is like the deepest creek with the element of love at the bottom.... :(

I 'm now in a place where I seel freedom from the earthplane.... it's just that my equation can not be accomplished.........

Further more I 'm thinking about the girl and don't know how things will work out. She seemed to be my ticket of life, and still she seems a part of my original destiny...

I used to write for about a tear that the reason i live is for our love..... Now the situation seems to be stuck irreversably and I 'm still on the downgrading........ :)

thanks for reading, if you did..... ;)