Card for bipolar disorder

I have the dreaded bipolar. I am very I'll today and had to call in sick at work.

I'm wondering what card or cards would signify bipolar disorder so I could possibly get a heads up in the future. I am in a mixed state now of depression and mania. It is awful and no fun. I am in close contact with my dr.

Five cups, nine swords, two wands, four cups, justice reversed, ten swords, two pentacles...?

What card do you all think?

Lovers reverse in a specific health reading backed by The Moon or The Nine of Swords both Upright.

To me it's the death card because of the two distinct sides to it, one very barren, the other with a rising sun and very hopeful.

However, why lock yourself into a meaning of one card. Why not choose one card everyday and ask, "What card can I meditate on today to stay positive, healthy and hopeful?"

Just a thought.