[[[HUGS]]]
I'm weeping w/empathy; I know what you have to do ...
Let me first explain, regardless of being completely healed or still striving toward it grief &/or healing always have to be checked for residuals from each & every issue ...
Many people do not get that there are many layers to grief w/continuous set backs for years upon years ...
Unfortunately, because of this we all have a tendency to compartmentalize for a variety of reasons including feeling shame for the lengthiness of our grief other people notice or from complete mental, emotional & physical exhaustion ...
The loss of a loved can be healed or mending for an entire life time; it depends on the choice of each person ...
In any case, healing has to be maintained & checked periodically ...
I don't know what it feels like to lose a sibling, however, I do know what it feels like to have the energy of my primary soulmate literally sucked from my body upon death ...
To check if any residuals remain & in maintaining my healing I test myself ...
This will be hard, grieving takes alot of courage but the benefits of having a peaceful soul are tremendous ...
Choose a song that reminds you of your brother, if you can't think of one I've pasted my grief song below ...
Get a picture of your brother, play the video & summon memories ...
Go with whatever you are feeling, do not hold it back ...
Over & over & over --- only on days off work or everyday after work - weeks, months, etc or as long as you can cope it. If you need to stop do so till you have the strength to continue on ...
Sending hugs, blessings & positive energy for your journey ...
http://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=...&F ORM=NVPFVR
"DARKEST DAYS" by Black Label Society ...
written by Zakk Wylde ...
Divided soul of a troubled man
The final fight
The final need to understand
These tangled roots
Ripped from the ground
Abandonment and worry
Forever to be found
Rain. Rain. Rain
Take this hand of sorrow
Take away my darkest days
Rain. Rain. Rain.
Take away my darkest days
Return me for I feel I'm here to say
For just one moment of peace I long to know
I can see the storm clouds calling me back home
The blood of the hurricane where the water is never still
Life is a loaded gun
Love is a bullet that sometimes kills