Strange anomaly occures from prayers

[Crystalsun]

Hi,
I could use some help. I saw similar thread smwhere in the forums, but cannot find it.

When I pray, for healing or a bless, for example, very soon I start feeling awfally sick. It is similar the physical pain, but it is like on energetic level. It feels like the most parts of the body, and my reaction is to start screaming, because i cant bare.

A few days ago, I was chanting "Om Babaji " mantra. The first 3-4 minutes i felt like a soft bliss, pleasent, and after that i spent 2 hours in a very inpleasant condition, with the same negative sensations.

And here is something interesting. When I pray, my body language tends to take a breaking position, not agreeing with me praying. Also, my face flashes microexpressions of fear+sadness, like when I pray for a blessing. It is as if unconsciously I don't want positive thing to happen to me.

I thought, that God would fix this, but no reaction so far...