The clock is ticking

I had to step away from my TF today and it feels like I can't breath. The distance between us was hurting both of us (really really REALLY badly) but neither of us are in a place were we can move.

I've been having a lot of dreams about clocks ticking down, as has my SM and I know it's a sign - which does bring reassurance but it still hurts. The timing for us was right but not in the way I hoped and thought. I think it was important to meet him and know that he was real - I was getting so bitter with the idea of love and being in love. I doubt I would have made it to the end of all these lessons without becoming completely embittered and totally shut off to the idea.

A year keeps playing in my head - 11 months actually - it's even come up in readings but that seems so far away.

He was oddly understanding about why this needed to happen. I guess it's not so odd though... It hurt so bad to be separated that it's almost a relief to be cut off from contact.

It still hurts and I'm not quite sure what to do with it though...

[Ascension]

you never alone .