How did you feel in the time before you met your twin flame

I was on the edge right before i met my tf. It wasn't intense or anything, we just locked eyes and it was like we had always known each other. During the next two years my life had its ups and downs, our relationship became solid almost over night. Then both our lives started to change very rapidly. Been quiet the ride.

my entire life ive been an emotional mess. the crazy girl that would always get in trouble. suffering from depression, the other moment a complete fool. often doctors used the word bipolar.

than about 2 years before meeting my twin, i calmed down. i finally had some directions what i wanted to do with my life, i turned very much into living on my own, not contacting much people while before i was a social butterfly.
i felt like a huge piece was missing tough, but it also felt like it would get solved soon.

than half a year before meeting my twin, i got loads of bad luck. just one thing after the other. accidents following up like crazy and some almost killed me.
people who knew me longer were surprised i didnt fall in a major depression, instead i stayed calm and felt everything is happening for a reason. i mean i wasnt happy all those bad things happened to me, but it didnt hurt me like it would before (hurt emotionally).
others said there must be a huge divine thing waiting on my path to compensate all this bad luck.
than my last accident led to my twin.
thats 2 months ago, i kinda feel now like everything is in its place.