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Originally Posted by jim78
Thanks Ahiyah. I'm at war with myself because I was given insights into my own soul. Its not the result of indecisiveness. I do feel unworthy of the challenge but thats just a feeling.
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Ok I put out there as in this thread what I thought this might be about and those possibilities has led to another possibility and you must know there are other possibilities also. Since I'm having to fish for info it can sometimes makes me hoha a word that kinda means 'couldn't be bothered' but in my fishing and like all successful fishermen and fisher women patience is key.
Now that indecisiveness is out of the equation I will relate an experience of my own that I had a very hard time getting through in one piece, make note of "one piece" because it is related to this experience.
I could also say that I was given insights into myself, not only that but things all around me. This also had an influence of the people around me. It got that way I was walking around blind people that were blinded by that influence. The more times I had these experiences I could see things very clear. As I was coming out of these experiences I could see the darkness of the influence in these other people around me. This made me angry, angry because the people were being duped and they allowed it. At first when I started speaking to them to wake them they seemed as though they were speaking for the enemy that had them duped. My anger grew even more. Almost at the point of acting violently with them.
A little story needs to be inserted. In days of old I came from a people that had these concepts in them to live. When growing up in the Marae situation as a young boy(although there are females that fit this purpose also) you grew with the honour of the People and you would happily give your life for the Marae. Yes they had other things to help them hold onto that spiritual concept. One is a baptism to determine whether one is to be a warrior or a conservationist, but the first kinda baptism and depending on the Tohunga happens not long after birth, years later the same Tohunga or a replacement one of the same people, because the first one might've died. Kinda around the age of the child about 12. At this time a Karakia/Prayer is said by the Tohunga to put the child in a intense natural state so the child will naturally step from the water with the foot he is accustomed to. Whew. Another way to hold onto the Mana of the Marae was poetry and this is where the Ururoa comes in, just briefly.
Ururoa
Kore au te mate Wheke, koiana au te mate Ururoa.
I will not die like the octopus(as in have you seen how kinda useless an octopus is when pulled out of the water?)
Instead I will fight to the end like the Hammerhead shark, (as in have you seen how fierce a hammerhead shark is when it's taken out of the water?)
In this day and age both of these people have been mingled together and now this concept has arisen.
I have buried my physical weapons but have kept the spirituality of them including their use. I have buried them so as to wait for the spiritual weapons to spring from the Earth. So if any shall be an enemy to the Earth I am able to use these weapons against them.
So back to your predicament. What ever your desire to do is it cannot physically harm another human being. Non violence is the way. And if you're having problems with the people around you, you have other unexplored ways to influence the desired outcome, and yes this takes almost all of your patience my Brother/Sister. I'd say a song called "hold on a change is coming" by The Sounds of Blackness, although the change has already happened for some.
Now that's if this relates to you or not. No need to admit it publicly if it is. If not you may have to keep searching. Ohana Cuz.