Extreme pain and letting go?

[hellabomer]

Things have been quite hard. I found someone with whom I felt instantly connected. Both of us are on a spiritual path. I had hoped that things would be a little smooth as he appeared to a peaceful person. But he started pushing me away, and now, things have gotten down the drain. Despite confessing his feelings and expressing his desire to be closer to me, now he claims that he didn't mean any of his sweet words in that way. He has totally flipped within a few days. I am immensely in pain, as it took me a great strength to overcome my previous heartbreak and fall in love again. I don't know how to stop feeling unworthy of love and learn love myself. I constantly wonder if he has found someone better than me. Though deep down, I know that I have my own unique place. But it's getting really hard. I am in a depressed state and feel empty and unmotivated.