Hello
I just thought I'd write a bit about something that's been on my mind for a while: Tools.
By 'tools' I'm referring to the thought forms/patterns, actual physical objects or rituals people use to experience their spirituality. To each their own, I just find I can't use them anymore.
In a sense it seems to me like it's a good thing I don't need tools to experience energies, but on the other hand I do feel a bit of sadness in not being able to enjoy going on spiritual journeys in search of, say for instance, animal/totem spirits as teachers.
This realm is very much focused on forms and the 'differences' between said forms. It's a distraction. I once had a dream where I was allowed into a 'fair ground' where everything was brightly colored and very distracting. After a while I was 'pulled out' again by people who were close to me and whom had remained outside of the fair grounds because it had all proven to be a little bit too much. The point being that even though it seemed very real and spectacular; it was all a show.
It would do me no good to go looking for my animal spirit guides or citing incantations, etc. I have a sort of aversion to deception no matter how well intentioned it may be. I can't do any of the things mentioned above without getting that creeping feeling like I'm fooling myself.
That reminds me; at the 'fair ground' the politicians of the world were represented by a babbling cardboard cut-out. I just thought that was worth mentioning