Hi everyone,
I'm not normally very interested in past life stuff, but I just had this very powerful experience.
I've known for a long time that the challenges I've faced in this life have been Karmic. And I was shown that a very deep wound I've been carrying since birth has come from another life.
Over the years, psychics have told me various things about past lives, but one thing that has consistently come up is that I was a Native American (I know; cliché for a new age white spiritual person to say that
). The details however, also interconnect, no matter who tells me.
I've been told that I was married to the medicine man of our tribe. We had some kids, and we were very much in love. I was also a healer, and had a white horse that I adored. One time I went to a clarvoyant and she told me that a Native American man was one of my guides, and that he had a big, white feather in his hair. I died very young and very violently in that life; by a spear to the gut, leaving behind my family who I adored.
Those details have come back to me in various forms over the years. Interestingly, when I was 23 (the age I was when I died in my Native American life) I was in a bicycle accident. I went over teh handlebars, and injured my stomache. There a circular lump of scar tissue there for ages; right in teh place where I'd been told I was stabbed to death.
I made a post yesterday about feeling nauseas lately, and not knowing why, and today I got the answer. I was practicing Yoga and it was a pretty deep practice. I can't explain how it happened, but suddenly I just got this awareness that my Native American guide / husband was with me. I could see him in my mind's eye. I was flooded with memories of riding my horse, and being part of the community, and an immense saddness came over me, because I realised I missed that life so much. I suddenly saw that my sister used to be my son, and my mother was my infant daughter who I left behind.
My guide told me that my stomache issues are from the traumas of that life. I was pregnant when I was murdered, and that's also why I have really struggled to conect with my maternal instincts in this life.
He gave me this vision of my spine as a totem pole, and told me that I need to draw in to my spine. Instead of trying to get over this old life, I need to hold on to it, and use the memory of who I was - an empowered woman, mother, and healer, to fuel me in this life.
I asked him why he was on the other side instead of reincarnating, but he didnt answer that. He only showed me that this is why, for my whole life I've felt like I was missing my partner a male. He also showed me my fear that death will separate me from my soul mate comes from this life. And also my fear that if I am happy, I will die.
All these things I know about myselfl suddenly clicked into place and were given a context.
I know he told me what to do but... how do I do it? How do I integrate all that life was to me, and use it to bring this current life into the place I know it could go?
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