Guys fall deep in love and cry with happiness

[Openbean]

Hey all,

Just wondering if anyone has some insight to this, it's something that has occurred throughout my relationships with the opposite sex. I haven't had a string of affairs and tend to be very selective with who I share my energy with so these accounts span over 15 years.

It just seems that the men I have had relationships with tend to fall in love with me fast and declare it within what I would consider a short amount of time (2 months) of knowing them. The last relationship I had, I mockingly warned him that im some sort of enchantress. Really, i don't wish to enchant, am completely myself with others and am often put off having a relationship due to breaking hearts. It hurts. Anyway, each guy (I speak of four) whilst in my company has cried randomly with some love rush which perhaps was being released inside them and they tend to have big shifts (breaking bad habits) to do with the influence of our relationship.

Then as the relationships have come to an amicable end, they want to stay close which is OK by me because I do care and have love for everyone of them but I just do not feel its right in my heart to be in a romantic relationship with them. I'm usually called on for an ear, some advice or generally spurring them on with their goals and I seek out their friendships because I do feel a deep connection with each of them which goes beyond just a regular friendship and regardless of any intimacy. There was also a time when I had my first boyfriend at 16 and the night after I ended that relationship he ended up in hospital with heart failure!?! (He was a year older) I felt instant guilt and obviously visited.

I don't know if any of this makes sense?!

Anyway, I am an energy worker, am sensitive to frequencies and have been practicing body work for the past 7 years. When I was a kid I was always into the idea of witches and paganism and practiced a sort of protection mediation which spread from my heart to eventually encompass the world, every night for years since I was 7 as a way to feel I could safely fall asleep.. I now see its similar to the loving, kindness meditation widely practiced.

So I guess I'm wondering if anyone can make sense of any of this and why it happens and what the hell I am if not just a big flirt!?

Apologies if it's all abit TMI. Just didn't know who else to ask?

Lovebeams and lightbeams, OB x