Being in a state of openness

[JustBe]

I think for me, during my spiritual progress, I spent a great deal of time and energy denying what others saw in me. I’m speaking more so, the healer/empaths who I journeyed closely with. They are the ones that do see more than you at times.

Understanding myself closed to others in their awareness of me, I struggled to get answers, suffered more than necessary and repeated those lessons over and over.

When I finally let go and decided to let life open up and let myself feel how that felt, it wasn’t easy to have to look at myself in the light of how others saw me. At times it felt like they were way off the mark, but when I finally listened, felt their words, I realised I had a big ball of trauma and grief holding this need in, that didn’t want to see something in myself, feel that something.

It’s not easy being told by another more truthfully, how they see you. Sometimes it’s true in their seeing, other times they can project something in themselves at you that isn’t true, but most often as I’ve found, everything that comes into your being, is an opportunity to open and notice from a more holistic awareness of being you what that means more truthfully being you.

Openness on the path doesn’t mean you are letting life dominate you, dictate to you, tell you what to do, but it’s through openness you open up things inside you, your denying and pushing away, simply because of your own stubbornness or desire to never be told something you don’t want to hear.

Openness means, I am open in myself, I hear and see what is there, I allow and let it open up inside me anything in resistance, anything stubborn or reacting.
Anything I just might not want to hear.

When I resist, I miss that opportunity of growth.. I continue reaching for more and receive the same old patterns. Those patterns thst open state can break through and change one’s reality.