Hello,
I am new here and wanted to ask for some help. I believe some of my charkas are weak. I want to be able to allow the kundalini to clear them. I do not meditate very well at all. It’s hard for me as I am one of the small percent who can’t be hypnotized and I think that has alot to do with it. I did have an experience about 5 years ago where a felt a rush of energy come up from my feet throughout my entire body while laying down. I never felt anything like that before but felt I could resist if I wanted to.
I didn't feel anything negative with the energy and I was curious what would happen. So I just relaxed and allowed it to proceed, my heart pounded a mile a minute but nothing harmful happened. Its lasted for about 10 minutes or atleast felt like ten minutes and then slowly stopped. Afterwards I felt like there was love left over.
I was never really a believer in Charkas etc until after this. But I have not been able to cause this to happen again. Afterward there were a couple times I could feel it trying to happen again but it never did. Later there was some energy while I was in a middle sleep state (dreamland/part awake) that a tingling was like fingers walking up my spine, now this scared me as I could feel this getting higher to my neck throat area, I resisted and it felt like it was being pulled away when I did so. The energy felt Feminine, don’t ask me why I just sensed that afterward. I later read that this could have been an awakening trying to start?
So for years I have tried to meditate, focus, relax with little to no results, never like that period before several years ago. I tried asking for help from guides of light etc, but nothing really happens. I am not a dark soul, just trying to grow and be the best being I can be. I want to better myself from myself if that makes sense?
There is alot of negativity right now in the world so much so you can cut with a knife, I am trying to counter that with positive attitude and thought. It does seem to work even though others are still negative I don’t feel it as much.
Can some one give some solid advice, I have tried visualizations and it doesn't work with me. Maybe someone focusing good positive thoughts to me would help? Or petitioning help for me to be able to cleanse and grow at a gentle pace. I am not looking for power, fame or money, just to grow and learn and be a better being. I wish to stay away from the darkside and them stay away from me.
Thanks
firefly101