life forever changed!

Just from our meeting I got over some long time fears that were holding me back from achieving my true potential. The thing is, he didn't do anything, there was no conversation, it just happened! The connection also has made me strive higher and my heart is so much more open. I feel more wise, connected, and on my path than ever.

It's for these reasons that I am not angry at the "separation period". I am sad, of course. Some days are harder than others, but even at the very start there was a moment when it almost didn't happen (we required some effort to connect) and even then I was eternally grateful for our meeting.

I also notice that most guys that I date can't tell me anything. I would argue or get defensive, but with him he has a way of reaching me and just speaking to me and it's truth. We both had a major impact on each others lives and through the help of this board and my instinct Im realizing that even the separation is part of the process. I also understand the importance of having ZERO expectations that we will come back together (even as friends). That part is tough as I WANT IT so much. But know that may not be the path. I am doing my best to not focus on what I can't have and instead focus on the amazing magic that has occurred in the last 8 months. The growth has been huge and I literally feel like a more whole person.

Until this board I was going to contact him and try and explain certain things, now I realize that's not part of the flow. In fact, meeting him has triggered me being with the flow and walking through the doors that the universe opens. Before that i had to plan everything all the time (even thought Im a free spirit). When I fought against the flow, it led to us not talking at all. I was like a pressure cooker and I was trying to hold back, but it all came rushing out. He is very angry at me, but in some ways I felt like I sabotaged it as I could not handle the walls that he was already throwing up. For a little while it cleared some space in my mind so I could move forward with other things.

Anyway, this is a kind of stream of consciousness post, in case it's a bit all over the plaCE...


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"The thing is, he didn't do anything, there was no conversation, it just happened! The connection also has made me strive higher and my heart is so much more open. I feel more wise, connected, and on my path than ever."

I could have written this about my soulmate encounter, too. Well done for maintaining such a calm, philosophical perspective on your situation! I'm sure it will work out for the best.

I agree with loverevolution, good on you for being calm. Lots of luck :)

Love & Light.