On the day you reach perfection – be sure to let us know. Because that won’t happen.
No-body is perfect and motherhood never came with an instruction book. Bugger!
An over-protective mother may be harming in the long run her child more then she realizes, but that’s life (and its quite sh*t sometimes) even for parents) but your mum was doing what she felt right to her at the time.
At least she loved you enough to feel you needed protecting or else she could’ve just thrown you to the wolves or left you on a doorstep.
You are her child, her flesh and blood and its instinct for her to do so whether you like it or not. I’d consider yourself blessed if I were you. Think about it.
Aren’t all mum’s bossy to some extent? Mine was bossy.
She was strict and she was quite often cranky. Tired and fed-up with my inconsiderate ways I’d say.
Do this! – Don’t do that! You’re not allowed this or that, and you can’t go there!
That’s it - I’ve had enough – Go to your room!
Parents put up with a lot you know. And most of the time we wished we didn’t have to either. But we do... because we love our children.
Come rain, hail or shine... most of the time it’s a mum doing this for you and doing that for you, regardless of how you do or don’t treat her. If you don’t like “what” she does for you now... do it yourself.
You’re more then old enough to move out, get a job, cook your own meals, pay your own bills and clean your own toilet. Sounds good eh?
But then again, I guess some mum’s should just lighten the **** up and get off their kids back already, and butt out of their child’s business and let them do what they want, whenever they want and without boundary. That would be the best way, don’t you think?
At least there’d be no wondering about how so many ungrateful, inconsiderate, pesky kids/ teenagers/come adult - came about then. Because the answer would be crystal clear.
And I mean no offense by that at all – I was a kid once too and at times a rotten teen and didn’t fully grasp the error of my ways.
This, by the way – was my thought pattern; of which stemmed from bad b*tch “Miss Ego”.
This hate/dislike is your problem first. Yeah I can get they have “stemmed” possibly from your mum and your upbringing but at the end of the day it’s now yours to delve into and ask yourself some tough questions. If you were 10 yrs old, the questions would be a little easier. But your 22. You can do it! As you already are.
It’ll be like devouring a nice big sour lemon with icing afterwards.
Dig into your emotions without fear, and you will find what you need to satisfy this terrible feeling; of feeling like you don’t love her like she deserves.
If it were me – I’d be delving into the obvious reasons first of why you think this hate/dislike has come about. For the obvious reason of they are easier to reach.
After them you’ll likely find there won’t be that many of “without reasons” to look at anyway.
Tip – The 12 Step Program could help you immensely here. If you do it right.
She abandoned her kids? To be honest – This is her business and not really yours and she probably felt good reason to do such. Regardless of whether it’s right or wrong. It was right in her eyes for whatever reason she gives it, and you need to come to terms with it for your own peace. Maybe try talking with your mother to understand why?
Sometimes when things go pear-shaped in a family, there’s actually a lot more going on behind the scenes then you ever realized. (And as you were young none of this was probably your worry, but all hers) Put yourself in her shoes sometimes; if it were you.
Then you may be able to get over this grudge you seem to have because once again, she done what she felt right. After all they are her kids. Not yours.
You’re lucky to have had a mum that focused on you!
Possibly too much, but hey ...it could have been worse and you could have had Medusa for a mum!
Sorry for being so blunt and apologies if it hit a raw nerve of any kind.
I do realize you are feeling terrible, but tonight I’m in a “raw” mood (or I've eaten too many Easter eggs) and this post also needed some more “raw love”.
But I make no apology for being an imperfect mother myself...and I always done what I thought best for my children whether they liked it or not.
It’s what mum’s do!
I will just add – as I can feel both sides of your dilemma. Perhaps you love your mum in a different way ... and will never be able to love in the way you “perceive” love to be for a mother.
There is nothing wrong with this. People love differently for whatever reason, family or not.
But I’ll bet my 12 tennis balls that your lack of love has a lot to do with resentment.
to you ... cos resentments are a mongrel! (But can be ditched)