Advice or technique for self change.

I was certified as a hypnotist many years ago through a fellow named Hogan. I wanted to use it to clear some of my self doubts. After getting certified a hypnosis shop opened right down the street, literally walking distance, from my house. I got a pt job there.

It's a long story but although I felt like I was very good at hypnosis and I felt that I connected with the clients I had issues and misunderstandings with the owner. So I just left, just quit.

After that I felt like I was cursed or had bad luck. Intellectually I know I don't have bad luck but emotionally I have a block. I keep trying to go back to hypnosis and I have even helped friends but something inside me just stops me from doing anything. Even something small like trying to put recordings on YouTube to see if anyone would want them or use them.

Is there a self hypnosis or eft or rieki or other technique that could help with something like this? I am open to just about any safe and somewhat rational thing.

Thanks,

Earl.