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Originally Posted by FallingLeaves
As I've said before, I think there is a curse in play. As part of this, females are made to want their 'husband', but this goes against all their own instincts. (you see both dynamics on this board)
when you want him you can't have him because that would satiate the wanting and thus deny the curse its power, and when you want to get rid of him to make the pain go away, you can't do that either. Again to keep the curse going... so you end up rationalizing whatever position you are able to take because you won't believe that life would be so mean to you. Until one day it all falls down and you have to face it directly again.
'Cording' is probably part of the binding for the curse.
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I was trying to merge with to understand the feeling of this reply haha... really I was!
I guess when a part of you (the part which feels lack) that same part seeks to possess another to bandaid your own lack.
I've always hated energy cords of any kind... although I do seem to have one very long thin silver cord with an old friend but it is not an energy depleting cord... all it allows is a flow of unconditional love into his heart... for he is like a soul brother to me and although we haven't spoken in many years I want him to know that I still love him. The love is from universal source... so if doesn't deplete.
I don't tend to cord to others easily for some reason anymore.
I made a very strong intention a while ago to maintain a very strong 'bubble' field around my aura. I express love from the heart to others but my energy bubble doesn't allow attachments to form in my energy body. This is one thing I did when transmuting the co-dependancy template.
The wonderful thing about all this is that when I am in balance and when I am connected to my own Christ conciousness field I can express this in my energy but it is more like... a sort of guiding signpost for others to remind them of their own inner balance and connection to source.
Another interesting thing about the Christed self... the way I experience it anyway is that it taps into one's natural empathy... yet it is objective empathy... a kind of empathy which observes, understands but does not judge.
Although in saying all of this I do wonder if the virgo in my chart allows me to express this love while maintaining a strong detached pressence... it is all a work in progress though... as I am still learning to allow and balance empathy and emotions with my grounded virgo expression...
One of my lessons in this life